Let's unpack some of these words: Without talking, Get something done, Hiding, Frantic, Check off tasks, Prove my value, Battle my emails, Run embarrassed and late, Commitment. These words don't sound like I have a very healthy, whole life experience. So, let's add guilt to the list to finish things up in a self-loathing way. Ramping up negative emotions ensures that your emotional intelligence will sap your energy. It's a negative reinforcing loop - the faster we go, the more mistakes, the more self-loathing, the faster we go, etc. Enough of these negative loops drives your body to try to stop you using health issues. Negative emotions are your body's alarm.
There are clear indicators when I am off my game:
- I miss too many workouts
- I don't have time to be with my friends and family
- I'm irritated with the ones who love me
- I eat poorly
I don't think it's just me. I'm not alone hiding at the coffee shop. On planes we sit alone side by side. In chaos, we are frantically trying to earn respect and fulfillment by running faster and crazier than anyone else. It's a crazy, dysfunctional race.